I Miss Him
It's crazy how volatile my emotions are nowadays. I thought that once I made it through recruitment, it would be smooth sailing. And it's not like it hasn't been. My classes aren't too terrible (yet), I've already gone out multiple times and met some new people, but it just doesn't feel the same without Matt constantly in my life like he has been the past (almost) two years. Even though we technically broke up four months ago, it hasn't really felt like a breakup at all. I survived through the summer by talking to him all the time while also balancing a pretty healthy dating life. I even got to see him twice... which was hard. Only seeing him twice within a three-month period was something we hadn't done before. But I knew that it was only foreshadowing the long three+ years ahead when he went to law school and we would be separated for good. I thought that once I got back to school I would be too preoccupied with my academic and social calendar to miss ...