The Quarter Life Crisis of an Ashkenazi Princess

When you just have a big old crush on them and things just seem like they're headed in the right direction. And your mood is just always better because you're on a blissful high of infatuation and dreaming. When your "crush" playlist is on repeat and your heart jumps a little when you see a snapchat from him. When you can't stop thinking about the next time you get to see them and kiss them. I'm in that sort of phase with Sam, because I've finally accepted that I might probably date him, and I'm letting myself fall. And this time, I'm letting go of the guilt and shame of leaving Matt behind. Because you never know what the future holds. I facetimed Matt for a good amount of time tonight. Our typical discussions about Jewish heritage and history ensued, with a good sprinkle of laughs. It was one of those conversations that otherwise might leave me feeling sad that Sam doesn't (yet) make me laugh like that. But just as I started to feel bad for m...

 ...And I can't stand to turn the page. Those are lyrics from the sappy song Chapters by Commuters. It makes me want to cry almost every time I hear it, so much so that I usually skip the song when it comes on unless I'm looking to have a good sob sesh. The song addresses the fact that change is hard, saying goodbye is hard, moving on is hard, starting over is hard, but life goes on nonetheless. Some people embrace change more than others. I'm one of those people who don't take it so well. Crying through big life events is normal for me. But, at this point I've learned that eventually I'll be okay. So, after weeks of avoiding writing this blog post for fear of digging up my emotions and addressing the obvious changes in my life, I'm ready to come clean and face it. I'm ready to start a new chapter. Part 1: The Roommates When is life not in transition? I guess you could say never. But right now, my life seems to be exceptionally in flux. Let's start w...